Carnival by K.B. Nelson
Publication date: July 7th 2014
Genres: New Adult, Romance
Blue grew up in the carnival, never staying anywhere long enough to call home. He never thought of himself as the type to seduce a local, let alone fall in love with one, but his impulsiveness got the better of him this time. He should go where the carnival takes him, but for the first time he’s not sure if he wants to go.
When he makes the decision to stick around, Charlie eagerly follows him down the rabbit hole; into a world with no regard for consequences or regret. Most of all, he shows her that home isn’t a place, it’s a feeling they can create and share. For a price. Because the higher the roller coaster goes, the faster it all comes crashing down.
He moves toward me like he’s about to embrace me or something. It’s
not a conscious choice, but I lean back. He gets the hint and stops.
“What’s wrong?” he asks.
I need a second to think about the answer. It’s right on the tip of my
tongue, but it’s not ready to come out. I look everywhere but at him. “The
world.”
“That’s mysterious,” he says with a nod, “but I get it.”
My eyes catch his. “Do you?”
“I figured it out about fifteen minutes after I woke up.”
“Sorry about that.”
“For leaving? Don’t be. Like I said, I get it.”
I begin playing with my hair. I’m sure it annoys everyone but me when
I do it.
He gets closer and this time I don’t pull back. “You’re hurt. You’re
scared. You’re kind of lost. The world’s spinning and you just wanna jump off?”
“Something like that.”
“Let me get off with you.”
A chuckle escapes my throat. Blue’s eyes squint and I can tell he’s a
little frustrated.
“That’s not what I meant.”
“I know,” I say and straighten my face out, back into serious mode.
Those two words reminding me how terribly lost I’ve been.
“What I’m trying to say is that we all get lost sometimes. Just like
you’re lost now, I was lost when I met you.” The rain rolls off the edge of his
lips. “I think I’m still kind of lost, like I’m all the way out there on Venus
or wherever the hell it is that you girls come from.”
“Blue,” I interject.
“No. I’m going to finish because I’m not going to take the chance that
you’re going to say something stupid.”
“Stupid?” I ask, offended.
“Please, let me finish.”
My hand pats against my jeans. “Fine.”
“So I’m out there on Venus, but it’s you who always brings me back to
Earth. Like you’re the Sun and I’m the Moon, and I know that we belong together
because, hey, gravity.”
Strangely, I get his point. Even if he’s getting to said point in a
rather contrived fashion. I wonder aloud, “One might think you’re on drugs or
something with all this Plato-ing.”
“I want to say that your love is my drug, but I think I’m all cheesed
out.” He smiles and it’s a relief.
“That’s probably a good thing.” I roll my tongue across my lip. “Now,
can I say something stupid?”
“About that, I didn’t mean to—”
“Look, I love you and that’s not a question, it’s a fact. Some days, I
wake up and know that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Other days,
it’s a neon blur. It’s like I don’t know who I am anymore.”
It’s quick and it’s gentle, but his palms grab me and hold me by the
cheeks. “I know who you are. You’re Charlie. Sweet, beautiful, smart as fuck
Charlie—the girl that I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. Everybody
gets lost at some point, but I’m here to remind you exactly who you are.”
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